emily janette.: get lost and then get found

i'm obsessed with coldplay. and iron and wine.

i just had the strongest urge to watch mr.holland's opus. welp. today's movie while i pack is picked.

i really don't like moving.

my roommates and i had a bonding dinner/photos. on monday night. and we actually had fun together.

for hours. all of us. and yet now we're moving out. sad how that one worked out.

we are cute, though.

(more later)

i need to eat more regularly. except with moving, i have no food. flip.

oh hellooooo. did i mention I'M DONE WITH FINALS? nope? not yet. welp, although this is now a late announcement,

I'M DONE WITH FINALS. la revedere, winter semester. i probably won't miss you.

ok. just kidding. i'll miss getting to be in the cadaver lab.
not the quizzes. just the lab.

(yes this is emily. amazing that i just said that, right?)

and i'll miss romanian. for reals. our class was hilarious.

and i did love my comd classes.

ok, so it wasn't thaaaat bad. but i still won't miss it.

you know it's getting close to romania when you no longer need the 'de' before zile.

meaning:

optsprezece zile!

that's eighteen days. obviously.

sometimes i get really nervous about romania, but now, i mostly just get excited. especially when i think about the rad group of people i get to spend my summer with. we have such a good group. just saying.

for reals, how cute are we? so excited.

so we took videos during our roomie dinner as we went around the table and talked about our memories of each other, person by person. and i went through them all last night. and i might have almost cried. i was feeling so nostalgic. it was like an out of body watching-the-past kind of moment.

mostly i'm nostalgic because this is the longest i've ever lived with a group of people that's not my family and the longest i've lived in a place that's not home. serious. so i've obviously been doing lots of reflecting on the past year throughout the week.

sarah and i went through and listened to nostalgic songs. and might have almost cried a few times.
theme song? you're gonna miss this. trace adkins.

everything is changing, nothing stays the same. i'm not really sure how i feel about it.

ok. just kidding. i'm not really a fan. but i am. depends on the day?

it's a powerful moment, though simple, when people say they're sad that you aren't coming back and that you'll be gone. like they'll actually miss you. maybe it's a lie. maybe it's not sincere. but when it is, there's nothing like it. i wish i could say that happened more often. i think people should admit to missing and loving people more often.

sometimes i feel replaced. and i don't like it. adjustment phase.

i've said this before, but i'm kind of thrilled for the escape that romania is. escaping to a foreign country with minimal communication? i think it might be just what i need right now. oh wait, it is.

it was kind of weird to realize that some people leaving around right now, i won't see again till i've already gone and come back from romania.

i have some serious packing and consolidation of my life to do. and i'm maybe going a weeeee bit crazy with getting rid of things. my roommates are loving the first dibs at my di pile. haaaa.

moving proves significantly more complicated when configuring the 'three weeks before i leave for romania', 'romania', and the 'won't need until after romania' piles.

i bet you can't tell what's on my mind lately.

speaking of, time to get to work, i think.

not i think. it is.