no one else could do it better

i just had a nice long chat with my momma.
one that probably would have ended in tears or yelling (or who knows what) a few years ago.
but tonight, everything was all right. just right.
life can be so complex. but so simple. but so complex.
it's astounding the opposition that exists.
and the complexity of emotional capacity.
but in the end, everything will be all right.
all will be well.
there are some things i think can never be understood, except in the eternities.

"raise your head, for love is passing by.
come to jesus, and live.
sometimes the way is lonely,
and steep and filled with pain.
cry to jesus.
when the love spills over,
and music fills the night.
when you can't contain your joy inside.
dance for jesus.
with your final heartbeat,
kiss the world goodbye.
then go in peace and laugh on glory's side.
fly to jesus,
and live."
chris rice, untitled hymn


the love is spilling over.

i realized today that when i'm pregnant someday,

i'm going to be a crier.

yep. i'm totally going to be that girl.

the one that cries.

cries for absolutely NO REASON.

i'm super excited about it.

cool.

my tear-inducing feelings are way too tender.

crap.

heaven help the poor man that marries me.

he'll enjoy my loverly quirks and past experiences.

perfect.

i love him already, just for everything he'll get to deal with.

loverly.

in advance:

dear future hubby,

sorry about the tears thing.

especially the times with no reason.

feel free to make fun of me.

not while i'm crying, though.

that probably wouldn't be a good idea.

[we'll leave that at that.

another subliminal message?

definitely.]

otherwise, free game.

 i love you more than my mountains.

(yes i just said that.)

love, emily.

p.s.

another advanced warning for you:

i'm totally turning into my mother.

in all the quirkiest ways,

and the quirkiest characteristics.

(like the crying thing. or the classical 89 radio thing.)

not the expected ones.

loverly.

haaaahahahaha.

my apologies for the quirks.

love, ems.