thoughts of late.

some recent thoughts that have flitted across my mind in the last few days:

-- i love my major. but my classes, regardless of how much i love them, need to be over soon. or i at least need a break from them. seeing as we don't get a break, i'll take the over option.
-- i leave in 53 days. and quite frankly, at this point, i just really need to go.
-- there is no crueler or sadder disease than alzheimer's/dementia in general. for the patient and the loved ones.
-- i want to make everyone in the world watch temple grandin. incredible.
-- as of late, i can't stop listening to 'the finish line' by train. "when we learn how to fly, we forget how to fall. here we are." it's so sad, but captivating. that's all.
-- what's my problem? i could win an award for how much i've dropped the ball lately. this is not me. i don't even understand. my brain has apparently shut down. reboot, reboot, reboot, please?
-- i have 2 exams and 1 quiz that's practically an exam. all before next monday night. two of which before the end of tomorrow night. i love life.
-- i've been a resident of crabapple cove lately. i'm not a crabby person. usually. i'm working on it.
-- did i really agree to what i agreed to? apparently. oh dear.
-- there is no thought or feeling in this world worse than the moment you realize you are replaceable.
-- i temporarily uncrabbified (yes, i know that's not a word. just roll with it.) last night. and laughed a lot. slash giggled. floats my fancy.
-- why is it that whenever i see a fellow i could slightly fancy, is when i look the most disgusting? story of my life. oh, well. it's nice warning for whoever i marry. considering that the "greasy/gross mind of its own hair thing" is most days of my life.
-- crawling in a hole for an extended period of time would be ideal right now. is it too much to ask for a little bit of shut eye? apparently so.
-- ............................yeah.
-- i miss being little. i miss the moments my entire family would be sitting around our round table laughing. all of us. and then me spitting water out from laughing. or doug spilling water towards me. and then some more laughter. i miss that. way back when. when i was way younger. give or take.
-- i couldn't do it permanently. but often i'm jealous of people still living at home. life is so much easier that way.
-- romania will be a dream. i can already tell that our group is going to be great. and we will become tight(er). like sprite, duh.
-- in some ways, romania feels like an opportunity to run away. a breather for awhile. i'll take it. i think that's part of what's so enticing. being completely isolated with just a few people. away from the daily hub-ub here.
-- i have a class in 11 minutes. that is a review. that i need to go to. but don't want to.
-- breathe. just breathe. why must this week be so ridiculous? then again it's not any more ridiculous than many other weeks this semester. maybe now that it's the last exam week i have i'm just more weary of it all.
-- bleehehhhhhhhh.
-- i'll be fine, this time. i'll be fine, whoahhohhh. song ending. that's my cue.

yeah.